Deep night of the soul is often a sorrow that runs through the entirety of self. It is a depth of sadness that is not dependant on current daily life situations or circumstances. It is a part of oneself with threads that weave from the past to the present. As it is held so deeply within the patterning of framework we have through life, we are often only aware of it at certain times. This can be when it has risen into awareness by a sadness caused by the influence of something else. It can be sensed as a form of grief, loss, a longing, a feeling of intense aloneness, emptyness or that there is only the sorrow and nothing more. The emotional pain felt, is held within a specific area of physical body and the emotional body, radiating into the mental body to produce thoughts not receptive to a postive perspective or outlook. This depth of sorrow may be part of an innate aspect of self and not always experienced by everyone. Often hidden below the surface but never quite affecting normal daily activities or interactions, until such time as it reveals itself again in consciousness. It can be felt or perceived for varying lengths of time, ranging from a sudden unexpected burst into awareness or being there for afew hours before subsiding once again.
There are many reasons for feeling sad and differing levels of sadness, all valid whatever the cause may be. But this deep wounding of emotion from within, can be overwhelming in both its simplicity and vehemence. It is not the sort of sadness the release of shedding afew tears will alleviate. The original cause of disruption and disturbance to the natural equilibrium of self and energy field may have been carried through from a past life or lives, from a sense of disconnectedness to source, a chiron wounding, lots of sadnesses built upon each other or traumas experienced. We are far more than just our physical bodies and personalities, we are an infusion of complexities, often with various parts of ourselves, feelings, thoughts, or energies, rising to consciousness and falling away like the ebbs and flows of the ocean tides. Sometimes from the depths and sometimes from just below the surface. We can be very judgemental about feelings felt and the reasons for experiencing them, they may be subdued, inflamed, suppressed, denied and minimalised. But they are energy and as energy they can be felt, understood and if wanted, released and transmuted into a different level of experience. Knowing the depth of feeling held and having a sense of unattached observant awareness of it can help with allowing the acceptance or expression of it. Honouring of personal emotions is soul love, it is a strength and gentleness of holding and allowing youself a frequency of energy that is timeless, a healing space just for you.
Soul love is a part of you, it may not be felt very often and is sometimes directed more towards others than oneself. We are here on the planet to experience and that includes our range of emotions. Following where these feelings may take us with our intuition, trust and awareness. To guide us to an understanding and knowing of more of who we are, how we are and what we are, including how we can heal ourselves and create shifts in energy alignment. Soul love is a journey of exploration into our divine self, an acceptance of self compassion. Exploring feelings and how they influence your behaviour can give a complete new sense of self awareness and insight about yourself, the reactions of others and energy correlation.
Energy can be affected by feelings and vice versa, this can also affect wellbeing. Take care of yourself with the practical aspects of a nutritious balanced diet, food plays an important role in influencing both energy and emotions. Take time alone to recharge, spend time doing something that you enjoy. Seek emotional wellbeing healthcare from your provider if required. Honour the parts of you that may be hurting, use your internal compassionate self to be kind to yourself. Movement, dance and music can work well to explore feelings held. Meditation is a useful aid in accessing your energy within a sense of serenity. Your feelings are not all of you but they are an integral part of you and they do matter and deserve your consideration.
In light Michelle
Healing into Light 